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Have you ever sensed that God has given you a vision of what He might have in store for you? You can see bits and pieces but not the whole. You wonder what it is that you are to be doing…what is your part in making the vision come to be.

I am in such a place in my life. I sense there is something coming but I can’t quite see the whole. I’ve been asking questions like, “God….what do you want me to do?”, or “What is the next step?” I’ve stressed over making the ‘right’ decisions or trying to make the pieces fit together.

A while ago when I was journaling about this, I remembered the story of Sarah and Abraham. God had promised them a child. But, she couldn’t see HOW it would come about. She was too old to conceive. They had been waiting for a very long time and she had no idea when it would happen. As she tried to put her pieces together, she came up with the plan which was to have Hagar sleep with Abraham in order to have a child. Maybe that’s what God had in mind! Sarah pushed into the vision, the promise and found a way, her way, to make it happen. What a hot mess that turned out to be.

I have been trying to discern what God is leading me towards. I have know what it is but have no idea how it might happen. I think, in some ways, I can be like Sarah. I can try to figure out how God will do what seems out of reach for me. I can work all the angles and then realize I am looking for my Hagar. I am trying to make it happen.

I don’t want to do this. I want to trust what God has laid on my heart and then wait and watch to see how He will bring it about. It doesn’t mean that I won’t move when He says move but it does mean that I will wait for Him to set the pace. No pushing, no straining, to figure things out. If it is what He wants, then I know I will see it when He brings it into focus.

What dreams or visions has He given to you? What is it like in the waiting? Are you pushing….or observing? Consider spending some time with God today paying attention to what He might be showing you and how you might be responding to it.

Grace and peace,
Deb

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